Welcome to my dreams page.
I use this place to write about recurring dreams and nightmares I have.
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I dream often about death.
Sometimes it's by drowning, electrocution, or murder.
Dream death is weird.
It sounds like a high pitched, muffled ringing - like feeling like you're gonna pass out.
But the moment before death stretches for an eternity. "I'm actually dying, this is it," going off in my brain.
After I die, I either wake up or my dream ends.
I've had dreams about rollercoasters for as long as I can remember.
In a recurring dream, I take an exit off of the highway.
As soon as I take the exit, I realize I made a mistake.
I am approaching a bridge that is actually a rollercoaster.
I am not mentally or physically prepared for the rollercoaster, but I've already crossed the point of no return.
When I was young, I would dream of riding 'unfinished' coasters that would end midway through and send me soaring through the air.
Now, I mostly dream of not being ready for the rollercoaster, but having to ride it anyway. And the pressure of going that fast.
Sometimes I drop my keys and my phone.
Sometimes, I'm in an elevator.
It stops, or breaks down, or whatever.
But sometimes, it drops.
And then I'm falling--
There's a room full of elevators in a large office building that I dream of.
The main sensation is the fear I feel when considering taking one.
But I'm fine on them irl.
I dream about bathrooms a lot.
Sometimes they're huge locker-room sized bathrooms lined with stalls.
Other times it's a tiny space you can barely turn around in.
When I was very young, I dreamt of a secret passageway in my house.
It led down to a basement area with several toilets.
I have a dream place that's a bookstore. I dream of this place every now and then.
It's two stories, but they aren't consistent. Sometimes, the bookstore is on the first floor. I know this is in the 'past'. Sometimes, it is on the second floor, which is in the 'future.'
Sometimes the bookstore is even more developed, and they have displays, like a library or bookstore.
They sell very cheap books at the bookstore. Most of them are only 25 cents.
There's an area with computers, but they're all really old and have white CRT monitors.
If you explore around the different rooms, you'll also find children's bedrooms.
This place doesn't resemble anywhere I've been in real life, but maybe it's an amalgation of places?
I always dream of malls.
They are multi-floored, with escalator-like contraptions that are more like sloped conveyer belts.
If I go into a store, it's usually extremely crowded.
On the basement floor is a room that existed in my dreams from my childhood.
It's an old area that's either a rollerskating rink, a bowling alley, or a ball pit depending on the dream.
It has nostalgic neon patterned carpet that makes my chest feel funny.
Sometimes I wander around the mall, through the stairwells and back rooms. There are many strange large and empty rooms, some of them covered in foam like a gymnasium.
Sometimes, I see UFOs in the sky.
Other times, it's just the aliens I see, flying among the stars.
When I see them, I'm usually in a tall building with lots of windows.
It feels very apocalyptic.
I have a whole dream-neighborhood that is consistent across dreams.
But I have always dreamt that I am sneaking into other people's houses.
I'm not trying to snoop, or taking anything...
But I know it's wrong that I need to be as quiet as possible so I don't get caught.
Sometimes I get caught anyway.
I've had dreams that I'm traversing the neighborhood solely by walking through people's houses - in the front door and out the back door.
Usually in these dreams, I don't attempt to hide.
At most I get strange looks, a feeling of shame, and a strong sense of not belonging.
I'm in a nondescript grocery store.
I go through the aisles, looking at the shelves.
Sometimes there's really weird stuff. Occasionally I'll remember some 'brand names' I saw in my dreams, which obvs don't exist.
When I get to the checkout line, I don't have enough money to pay.
This happens in every 'store' dream I have.